[43] lost

For sure travelling is always smth great. Does anyone doubt?
That's is 
Or better to say it used to be one of my beliefs.

But this summer (except the time i was passing my exams) i was in my home city only for two weeks. And because of endless trips when i was home 8 days ago i felt like i lose the feeling that i'm home. Like i don't belong to somewhere anymore. All cities i've been to this year mixed in my head and realise that it's becoming harder to chill and feel home&safe.

Unfortunately i didn't have time to reflect about it because i went to the conference about self-awareness and -development. And this conference has just blowed my brain, i saw strange night dreams and some strange coincedences happened.
All of these facts kicked me out of my way and familiar life. Even now i am completely lost and doing my best to get all thougths together and make a decision about the future

That is the first point i acquired from so much travelling this year

The second point is more scary and complicated to me the the first one.
I am so much afraid that because of i am not in my city all the time i'll lose everything that i've got there
That i am losing my relationships and my department...
I really hope that is only because i miss very much and my imagination is just playing a low down trick with me.
So i will know it in a couple of days.
But before i gotta decide how to behave